I'm Not Me

Columbia University: The Best Place to Score Drugs in New York
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I've had a prescription for adderall since I was 10. It's kind of sad, actually. I don't know who I am and I'm never sure whether it's me or the pills, and I'll probably never completely get off them because they're a part of who I am. That said, I abuse them like crazy. I'm on it right now actually, sitting in the library of a northeastern liberal arts college, heart pounding, high (if you will) with the kind of euphoria that drives me to achieve beyond any means of which I'd otherwise be capable. I've also been up for three straight days, haven't eaten anything since Saturday and am about to start a 20 page paper due Tuesday. And it'll be the best damn paper I've ever written. Then I'll rage with whatever I have leftover at post-exam parties. I prefer not to think about my health and sanity and chalk my ignorance up to the innocence of youth.
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Irreconcilable Differences: When Kids Dump Their Parents
As reiterated on this past Sunday's 60 Minutes, actress/producer/director Drew Barrymore had herself emancipated from her parents at the age of 15. But that's a drastic option...right? [...]

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I haven't seen nor spoken to my parents in almost 10 years. (My 9 year old son has never met them.) And while this was not an easy decision to make my life is better for having made it.

My parents are functioning alcoholics, racists, and seem to lack any ability to respect other human beings.

As a teen and adult I was able to just ignore it or just avoid them and any confrontation. But once I was married it became much more difficult, and when I became a parent it literally became impossible.

Respect. I could handle a lot of their issues if they had only tried to respect me as another human being and as a parent. Instead everything I did was wrong, everything I was doing was wrong, and they didn't need me trying to tell them anything - about my own child especially.

When you have to put in writing a plea to your parents to 1) stop giving your 4 year old alcohol, 2) stop making racist comments/jokes around same 4year old, and 3) respect me as a parent and take the role of grandparent to this child - this is when things have gone on way too long.

And so letter was written, and it was hard and emotionally draining, and I ~knew~ that just by writing it and confronting them about these issues (that had always been ignored when I talked to them about it) that there was a 99% chance they'd never speak to me again. I did it anyway.

While my kids don't have grandparents, and I don't have a mom - which is sad at times, it would be nice - it is much better to have NO mother than to have one that degrades you, dismisses you and treats you like garbage. My life is better without them in it.

(I got on TV -a national news/interview show - was so excited about it. The first words out of my mother's mouth: "You looked fat." I got married and at the wedding, in the dressing room my mother warned me against having children because "you won't be a good mother.")

This wasn't a whim, or a spat - this was years and years of negative behavior that I was unable to remedy through the countless other ways I tried. It was a last resort but I do not regret it. My life has so much less stress now. Thanks to some therapy, and to Buddhism, I've let go of the anger and hate as well. Things are as they are. I can only do so much, and I can not change another person no matter how hard I try. It is better to save yourself.

Woman

Lost Youth: Turning Young Girls Into Sex Symbols
Toddlers in tube tops and naked teen pin-ups no longer seem to shock us. How the sexual image of young girls is being manipulated

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There will never be enough said about this subject. Ever.

That aside, this is one of the biggest reasons I can think of that being a woman is so difficult. Think about it. We're brought up by the world to value a man's opinion. We're taught to place enormous value in our appearances, and if we fall short of the ideal, we're made to feel worthless. We're taught to accept catcalls and comments about our bodies-from strangers, even-as compliments. We absorb the world's edict that we are not ourselves; we are Women. A pretty surface onto which the world's expectations and desires are projected. This starts so early in our lives; it's so sudden and impossible to prepare yourself for. And eventually, you notice that your older peers-who once stood exactly where you are standing-sometimes can't conceal their dislike or distrust for you. They look at you suspiciously, as though the purpose of your existence is to undermine their own. This is NOT a broad indictment of all women. At all. But I'm sure many of you have experienced this very thing at the hands of, say, a coworker, or a mother-in-law, or a boss. In my eyes, being a woman is a struggle that never ends. It just changes shape. The weapons get sharper, the enemy starts to look more and more familiar as we grow into adults. Now, at twenty-seven, I'm no longer worried about men. I share my life with a good one, and that's where my focus is. So no, men and their opinions don't hold nearly as much power as they used to. No. It's the women I worry about now. The attractive older woman who fawns all over my SO, right in front of me. The women I worked with in a doctor's office, who were all older than me by a decade, who shunned me and ignored me and treated me like shit because I was only twenty (and probably a little hussy) and made me so miserable I eventually quit. The woman who eyed me up and down and then told me my outfit was....."fun". All of these little tiny things that women can do to one another to cut eachother down, that each and every one of us has experienced-or committed- at one time or another, know no age, it seems. I hope that if I ever have a daughter, I'll be able to somehow prepare her for this, and let her know that her strength will often be tested, and that she should never forget what she's really worth. I hope, too, that she'll understand, and that she won't let anyone-male or female- make her feel small or powerless or like she's only her body and nothing else. This is a long shot, I know. But I have to hope these things, or I'll feel as though all of my own little sufferings, and the strength they've fostered, will be in vain.

I'm less bothered by men who are attracted to youth than by men who are attracted to innocence. Youth has a lot of good associations--energy, enthusiasm, optimism, open-mindedness, iconoclasm. But innocence is only good for a few things--patronizing, ruining, or taking advantage of. ((shudder))
Excellent distinctions. Innocence has an emotive connotation that seems to elicit predatory behaviors, like a neon sign announcing the path of least resistance.
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Swiss Bust Child Pornography Ring
[06-28-09] Swiss police say they have uncovered an internet child pornography network spanning 78 countries and involving at least 2,000 IP internet addresses.

Bruns Leaves 'U' in Criminal Case
[1999] Thousands of pornographic images were stored on his computer, many of them of children in explicit sexual situations, said DPS Lt. Wesley Skowron...Skowron said Bruns has been trading and downloading pornography since at least late January, receiving as many as a few hundred inquiries a day from others eager to trade child pornography...If convicted of distributing child pornography, Bruns could face up to seven years in prison and a $50,000 fine.

How the Fox News Producer Got Busted for Child Porn
[02-10-09] FBI agents and police officers found computers, hard drives, and CDs. A Dell Inspiron laptop contained digital photos and movies "depicting children under the age of ten being sexually abused by adult men and women," according to Palchak's affidavit. Bruns had also taken naked pictures of himself.

***Warning: Graphic content ahead***
Fox Newser in Kiddie Porn Bust
[02-10-09] The following is a sample of some of the images and movie files found on the C drive of the Dell Inspiron Laptop:

1. This movie file is approximately seven minutes and five seconds long and depicts numerous female children most under the age of 10 performing oral sex on men. Several of the men in this video ejaculate into the mouths of these children. Some of the children in this video are being vaginally penetrated by adult men.

2. This movie is approximately 5 minutes and thirty seven seconds in length and depicts a female child under the age of 10 sucking the penises of adult men and being vaginally penetrated by adult male penises.

3. This image depicts a prepubescent child sitting in a bathtub nude with her legs spread open being urinated on by an adult male.

4. This image depicts a prepubescent child under the age of 5 with her arms behind her back and bound by duct tape being anally penetrated by an adult male.

5. This image depicts a female child under the age of 5 laying on her stomach with her pants down in a spread eagle position with her legs and wrists bound by duct tape.

Fox News Fires Producer Charged with Child Porn
[02-13-09] Fox hired Bruns in 2002, three years after he left the University of Michigan after similar charges of possessing and distributing child porn online.

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I'd like to grind a heel into the eye that looked at those babies being raped. Motherfucker.

I want to get together with 1/2 dozen friends - all between 6-0 and 6-10, 270-350. I figure we tie his wrists together and hang him from the ceiling so his feet barely touch the floor. The rule is "No hitting above the shoulders!". We would take lead pipes and SHATTER every bone in this motherfucker's body, from his collarbone to his toes!

Why use a heel for a job better suited to a hammer drill with 3/4" bit?
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